May 20, 2012

The one where I talk about the things I'm not supposed to

The school year is beginning to wind down. As a teacher this means that the students are getting wild and we all just want it to be over. Which begs the question, what next? I don't, technically speaking, have the money to even pay for a ticket home for the summer. But I cannot imagine spending the whole summer here, where it will be deathly hot. I also don't have any idea if my job here will continue. I also have no idea if I'd be able to find a job in America. Sometimes I stare at my bank accounts and wonder if they've ever had any money in them.

It's an absolutely petrifying position to be in.

As a result I am taking it out on my boyfriend. I told him we were no longer a couple today, then when he asked if I was serious, I said, "meh." My officially stated reason for being annoyed with him is that he is a selfish person. If he was smarter, he would point out that that is a selfish reason, thereby invalidating the complaint. The unofficial reason is that I do not want to have to consider him in planning my future. I want to be free to rigorously pursue jobs in America. Not that there is any hope that I'll get one.

Really I just want to curl into a ball until someone fixes everything for me. I epitomize maturity.


  1. Sometimes I feel like curling into a ball is the only thing I can do... I want to give you lots of hugs.

  2. With the way things are going in the US, you will probably not find a teaching job here. But 'tis quite sad, because I think that you're probably a much better teacher than many of the teachers that I've had.

    Good luck! I'm sure that you'll find something to do. Many hugs to you! :D

  3. Unless you did Teach for America (or Teach for China, Teach for India, Teach for... etc) I really don't know if the teaching job market in the US is going to be any better than what you'd find in Abu Dhabi. (I'm not going into teaching, so I really don't have a clue what the current stats/percentages are for teaching jobs!). Maybe consider going elsewhere abroad, where you can teach English?

    I know it feels like dire straits at the moment, but it'll all work out somehow!!

    1. I'm not eligible for Teach for America (or most Teach for... programs) since I already have a master's degree and certification.

      I don't know how I feel about going elsewhere and adjusting to yet another foreign country. In all honesty, I haven't seriously considered that as an option... I just don't know if I have the energy. It seems like that would take a lot of energy...

  4. Remember that everything happens for a reason and that although you might not get the job you want, you'll get the job the will lead you where you are meant to be

  5. I know several friends who have been out of school for 2+ years and still can't find a job as a teacher. It's crazy here in the US, because everyone says we need teachers but no one wants to hire any. I think if you have experience you might have better luck though, because that's an issue my friends run into a lot, no experience. Which I hate that stalemate, how do you get experience if you can't get a job without experience? I wish you the best of luck!